so...its 11:16 on sunday, january 24th 2010. I've been sitting here doing absolutely nothing but refreshing facebook and checking a particular section of my buddy list over and over again. I keep feeling as if no one wants me to care about them, as if I'm not wanted in their lives. ok fine, maybe I DO care a bit too much about you guys. so what? have you ever thought about what it means? it shows how much I want you people in my life and how much you people mean to me. even so, I always feel as if I'm ignored, hung up, blown off. as if I'm the last one to be told of a situation and it hurts.
so I think I like this person...I'm not 100% sure but its kinda growing..and yes I've liked other people before and I was stupid. I'm still stupid. I'm not supposed to be looking for her, because she will come to me. but right now, I can't tell the difference if its me looking for her, or her coming to me. life is just so complicated and I like it that way. often I wonder how she feels about me though and what she thinks about me...
