I'm beginning to lose it.

I feel like I'm beginning to lose it. I'm not sure if this is true or not but some people from cana don't like me very much. sometimes I don't feel welcomed by others at ocm. feels as if they want me out and that I don't belong. as if I'm there just to hang out and not to learn more about God. this is all my thoughts about it though. I may be wrong but thats how I feel about it. and its just wrong to me. =/

ok, different topic. memorial weekend is such a letdown. yesterday playing handball was eh. got kinda tannish yesterday not much. I GOT FRICKEN' SOCK TAN. so disgusting. today was like.... the big spark, highlight of the weekend. I was sitting outside talking with susan about our lives. she was just sitting on that....brick wall thingy waiting for our teacher but she never came. I sat with her and talked about whats troubling us. I talked to her about the person I liked, the person that might be mad or something at me. she talked to me about her problem such as missing out on her track meet for the...city championship I think. also about how tech ruined our lives :D. turns out I came in second place for the writing contest and math so thats an extra $60 in my pocket....soon. came home and talked to....people [you know who you are lol] but yeah I doubt theres gonna be anything fun to do tomorrow. no one is asking me to go anywhere. I don't know where to hangout, everyone seems to be busy with their own plans. I guess I'll sit at home and talk to myself? or someone on aim if they're gonna be home like me. pshh I'm a no life. D: