boston team. :]

I really enjoyed the volunteer outreach. Even though I come in the afternoons at 1, I still enjoyed the fun activities that they did, enjoyed the testimony that Max gave. Max's testimony got me thinking if I'm really christian. If I'm actually two faced or not. no one likes someone who lives a double life. I'm trying really hard to live my life for Him, but its really hard. I'm slowly growing to being a bit more like him, everyday, but the things that He has made for us on the Earth are like.. obstacles. the things that He has provided for us are like... little challenges to see if you can toss it aside to continue the run to eternal life. it's like a guy, choosing food, or keeping your friend company. ITS SO HARD TO CHOOSE! but we have to keep in mind to do the right thing...take the food and bring it to your friend, THEN eat it there! :D

today was boston team's last day to hangout with us. I'm disappointed in myself that I didn't get to know them better. I would've liked to go up to them and talk, but I don't know them that well...it would've been really awkward for me to have come out of nowhere. I guess the few people that I got close to are Rosalie, and Lucilla. they seem like really nice and cool people, but really, 3 days isn't enough time to get to know people. I actually found a few of the boston team members on facebook, but I'm not going to add them, too much awkwardness. I have stalking skills I wish I didn't have. :[

the boston teams shirts... they got me thinking. I didn't win a shirt, they didn't give me a shirt as a gift, and I was really jealous. I really wanted one of their shirts, I didn't know about the raffle for their shirts until they actually read the winners, I was so depressed. :[ then I tried to find one of them to give me their shirt, but I don't think theres any left. I was so sad that no one told me about the raffle yesterday, I didn't have any chance to win. but this got me thinking. I'm putting a materialistic thing, before Him. I can always serve and worship him without the shirt, without anything, but I really wanted that shirt because of what it stood for. I'm really sorry for ranting and I only know two people who would actually read this far. I never had a shirt from church before, and I thought to myself that having one would be so cool, it would speak out to people without me speaking. I'm disappointed in myself that I wanted their shirt SO badly...