everchanging.

so life has been acting up on me. we've all had ups and downs in our lives. but my life has been going down down down. I couldn't concentrate today. too many things on my mind.

1) is it possible for me and you to ever be together?
2) finals
3) regents
4) friends leaving

a lot of people today noticed my face as being down and depressed. some idiot even offered me anti-depressants/coke/weed. I shoved him out of my way and typically he would shove me back but then again, he's not THAT retarded to do that to me in the condition I was in today.

1) there are times where I can't stop thinking about how I want to talk to her, but its impossible since I like...never see her and I wish I did. I think I'm making it obvious but I doubt she reads this either. x.x

2)+3) anyways....my grades are like...the aftermath of WTC. I wish that I can just move onto sophomore year right now and start fresh and new. start off on a good start, going somewhere near 90mph and not dropped below 80. life can sometimes be a highway.

4) yeah. its getting to me.