its all up to god.

so far, I've been home for about 45 minutes. 5 minutes after I came into my room. my mom bursts in and starts yelling at me. nonstop for 40 minutes. she's still yelling at me as a type this blog. I really can't handle it anymore. after tutoring on sunday I plan to go to church and have a talk with either debby or rocky. I really can't handle this. it seems now they're the only ones I can go to. I've pretty much lost the friends I can go to for comfort and an ear to listen. the only people left in this world whom I feel like I can talk to is pastor rocky, debby, and god. I pray every night, everyday before I go to bed and often in the morning. I pray that He can take away this pain and agony. I pray that my global grade will be beyond passing so that I won't have to deal with an extra course next year. I'm praying everyday on top of the stress of my grades, my mom yells at me nonstop. I really, really want to jump into traffic but thats not going to happen. I seriously need someone to go to right now, or at least talk to for comfort. my home isn't safe anymore.