one sided love.

"I cant help it
Staring at u when ur not looking
Looking away when u r
When i see you laughing with someone else
I look away
Pretending it doesnt matter
Pretending I dont see u
Pretending that i dont want u
Pretending that u r nothing to me
But deep in my heart-
I'm drowning in my own tears
I sit here
Dreaming of a hope that will never exist
Trying to convince myself
That even if the sun sets today...
It will raise up again tomorrow
But as i look up at the darkening sky
I ask myself
Why? Why am i attracted to u so much?
Cuz it hurts to pretend
Bkuz every time i do
I feel like im losing myself
Why is it that only u, can make me so unsure of myself?
Is it bkuz ur so close...yet still unattainable?
So this, is wat they call...
One-sided love"
-thanks Jess

This is actually how I feel inside. one sided love. although I'm sure that it will never happen, its always best to at least let yourself think about it, and just let yourself feel good that she is someone that you want to be with, someone that you want to see everyday, someone that you can call yours.